There’s a cloud

Settling in around me. It follows as a dim reminder of things yet to come. Expectancy of the day I can’t seem to prepare for.

Slight shift and brilliant sun shines through, reflecting off everything that surrounds me. Glowing with intensity, unrealistic but within reach, touchable. Extending all hands forward I find myself Bounding toward the lights. For a moment, all is in color, beautiful and exhilarating , my very being vibrating in response. Off in the close distance is a strange object, brighter then the rest…a ball of pure light. Intrigued, I walk slowly toward it to examine it’s detail. Before I can stop myself I reach for the brilliant sphere, cradling it. Holding on, my fingers strain white as my heart drops…a shadow is creeping steadily above. Without my consent my body reacts, sprinting further into the light. 

But as fast as I can run, the cloud follows, in continual speed, above me. Shading the colors I seek, dimming the beauty of the things I can only appreciate when they are gone…holding on to this small light that I hope can bring color back to the darkness, express beauty to the things that I can’t seem to understand.

water.

Such an elaborate illusion, water stretching either way. Dark and glorious. A temporary phantasm, left her breathless. A distraction within the black waters.

The depth was unknown, only the surface being visible. From such a high view, the pool appeared Entirely calm and welcoming, Not a ripple or stir. The distance was staggering, but not at all threatening. The consequences were definite, but the thrill may have well been worth it.

Without hesitation she dove right into the pool. It wasn’t until she breached the surface that she began to doubt the security of the black water. For a moment, a thought mingled, what was it that stirred beneath the dark water? 

Something was waiting, but by then it was too late to turn back. Cold water washed around her, refreshing her skin of the burns. Icy to the touch, calming. 
Movement was clear around her, but was it from her dive or was there something else within the water? With eyes wide open, an uncertain stillness came about the pool. She was alone…waiting. 

But for what? 

Embracing Fire.

For a moment I could not recognize myself, or the feelings that blew through my body. Hot and irrational. Burning in my chest extending to my inexperienced eyes..not the exhillirating burn, this was different.
I shy away from the new flame as it threatens to burn me again, in denial of its raw purity. Intrigued by the newness of it, my body embraced it, and the impulse. Impulse forcing words that held no value, useless fillers to tense the already thick air. Thriving off this new fire, I could only describe as jealousy. This is how the angels cry. A new weapon itching to thrash around, an endless quantity. Having such a heavy impact, after such small misinterpretations…Take hold.

Running.

My pulse quickens as I check the timer, falling in tune with fate. Running only as fast as my mind allows me to go, wishing I could evade these thoughts. For awhile I had come to think it was a dream, I began to relax.
But that small instance, I saw the eyes as they followed. There are somethings that will never stop pursuit. Do I want you to? No. At least I wish it was an entire no. That small peice still clings to you, what used to be a warm surface, slipping on your marble exterior.
Thrashing through the forest, I found a pond, you waited there for me. How could I have not known? So naive. Or did I? Was it really me chasing you? And there you were, a reflection of what used to be. He smiled crookedly.
I guess you can’t out run your past.
It was here that I found your peace. Your stability extended to me, collapsing my tired legs. It was not pain, but relief. I see you just the same, your eyes never changed.
You sat beside me singing your song, before my vision flooded.

Knowing.

I’m trying not to lose my head. I’m trying to keep my own. Slowly, I will learn the difference, but as of now all we know is distance.
Break apart this instict, lock away what I can’t seem to say.

aphomvongsa:

Jamie just introduced me to this song and instantly fell in love with this.

Favorite Girl - The Icarus Account.

Don’t you know she is my favorite girl, I want to run away for days with her.